Black & White like Coffee & Milk >:o

State University of Jakarta

Riri, Ayu, Me (triiull), Steva, Isni

They are best My Girls

damn! they are so fuckin' cool \m/

love is the best medicine, & there is more than enough to go around once u open ur heart ;)

God, I know this is all a plan and Your destiny :')

ketika gue harus ngalamin, segalanya, sesuatu yg telah terjadi pada diri gue, entah dinamakan apa? atau disebut apa yg lebih jelasnya, tapi gue slalu coba buat TIDAK membuat mereka semua khawatir atas keadaan gue.

berawal dari SMA kelas 1 (semester pertama) sempet pingsan di skolah hehe it is shameful :D gue gak tau percis gimana ceritanya waktu itu (namanya juga pingsan ye), tapi gue sering denger cerita-cerita dari temen2 gue waktu itu sampe skrg kadang masih suka mereka ingetin sama kjadian itu haha, iya mreka nangis (sahabat-sahabat gue), mereka peduli, panik (guru-guru gue) & mereka bantu doa buat gue (temen-temen sekelas gue) aaaaaaaa itu yg bikin gue bangga banget punya mereka :')

setelah gue di opname (saat itu sekitar 5hari di Rs.Satya Negara) beberapa proses udah gue jalanin, mulai dari CT.SCAN sampai yg bikin gue shock dengan namanya CT.BRAIN, kadang hal kaya gitu suka gue pikirin, kasian bonyok gue saking khawatir sama anaknya mreka sampe bela2in gue buat nglakuin proses itu semua.

sekitar 3tahun udah gue lewatin, sampe saat ini hingga detik ini masih gue rasain, hampir tiap hari, walau sewaktu-waktu emang bener-bener harus bertahan dan harus kuatin apa yg gue rasa, dan kadang suka pasrah dan pengen aja tiba-tiba di ajak sama Tuhan gue Allah SWT (eh tapi ga boleh gitu te :)) but I have one wish which I always said when I pray "GOD, keep them that I love as those who always keep me, whoever they are :')" . tapi gue ga pernah dan ga akan mau terlihat down didepan mereka semua, apa yg gue rasain kadang suka gue umpetin kecuali emang bener-bener ga bisa ditahan, ya seakan-seakan 'Hey I'm Okay' ga pengen ngeliat mereka panik (siapapun) apalagi papah mamah gue, dan yg pasti gue ga mau diopname (lagi) sumpah ga enak!!!

kadang gue gak suka ama cara bonyok gue, selama tiga tahun ini gue udah dibawa kemana aja kali saking pengen sembuh total, dari mulai klinik, alternatif, ustadz-ustadz aka orang-orang pinter, dan terakhir terapi -_- gue gak suka itu semuaaa, dan akhirnya sekarang cuma ngandelin obat bertutup hijau :D ya itu lebih baik daripada gue harus mondar-mandir gak jelas!

hey ini hanya sekedar share gue ke blog ini dan kalian, bukan untuk dijadikan FTV atau Novel yaaa (halah pede banget gue) ya sehat itu mahal loh guys! jadi jaga kesehatan kalian yaaa ;)

I fall, I rise, I make mistakes, I live, I learn, I've been hurt but I'm alive. 
I'm human, I'm not perfect but I'm thankful :)

please don't leave me.. without sayin' goodbye!

WATCH YOUR BEHAVIOR !!

sometimes I fill my spare time by doing this cameroid ;)

he knelt to the ground, 

and pulled out a ring and said,

"Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.

I love you, and that's all I really know.

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress, 

it's a love story, baby just say yes."

we were both young when I first saw you ...

(taylor swift - love story)

effective communication is 20% what you know and 80% how you feel about what you know
-Jim Rohn

I WANNA BE WITH YOU - MANDY MOORE

I try but I cant seem to get myself 
To think of anything 
But you 
Your breath on my face 
Your warm gentle kiss I taste the truth 
I taste the truth 

We know what I came here for 
So I won`t ask for more 

I wanna be with you 
If only for a night 
To be the one whose in your arms 
Who holds you tight 
I wanna be with you 
There`s nothing more to say 
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way 
I wanna be with you (yeah) 

So I`ll hold you tonite 
Like I would if you were mine 
to hold forever more 
And I`ll saver each touch that I wanted 
So much to feel before (to feel before) 
How beautiful it is 
Just to be like this 

I wanna be with you 
If only for a night 
To be the one whose in your arms 
Who holds you tight 
I wanna be with you 
There`s nothing more to say 
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way 
(I wanna be) I wanna be with you 

Oh baby 
I can`t fight this feeling anymore 
It drives me crazy when I try to 
So call my name 
Take my hand 
Make my wish 
Baby, your command? 

Photo by Prima Wirayuda 

I'm not beautiful like you, I'm beautiful like me. just the way I am ♥

how do I look ?

sekilas terlihat Boyish yaaa? haha it is My New Hair Style! when the first time I dared to shave until the Scaly-Breasted XOXO :D

3 things a girl needs in her life: 

• love to make her weak
• alcohol to make her strong
• and best friends when both fail.

SEX suldn't b d'foundation of a relationship! #DamnItsTrue

with @SATCFPUNK (malang) at Grand Cakung, Jakarta

don't love too much, don't hope too much, don't trust too much because that too much will hurt you so much! 

-these words are very short, but so meaningful-

hello! we are friends guys :D

They are my best friends are beautiful, (middle) Maharani Ariesty Kalangi call her Rani, and (right) Dita Wulandari call her Dita. Everywhere :) we are always three of us, difficult & happy time whatever we do together (alah lebay haha) not among the three of us who don't know why I just skinny -_-"

♥ They are Part of My Life ♥